You Know I Would

i found you at a low point in your life

i helped you up, i showed you a new light

you took my hand, then i let you go

i thought that you were strong enough

to be on your own

you told me you weren't okay

i didn't hear from you at all after that

i should've been there

but you and i know we can't change the past

but if i could, i'd go back to that moment

right after you slipped away

i'd ask "were you thinking of everyone else

when you pulled that goddamn trigger?"

i know your life seemed terrible

but did you think those cans and bottles

and that casing would safe you?

it seems like forever since i've seen you

and it's only been a week since you left

i can't wait to see you again

i know it'll be a while

cause i have to live for you and i

until i die

and if i could, i'd go back to that moment

right after you slipped away

i'd ask "were you even thinking

when you pulled that fucking trigger?"

i know i'm angry, i know i'm sad

but i know that this will pass

i know you weren't thinking of the pain

you'd leave behind